I just COULDN’T leave you guys!!!!!
Jan 26, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueVB4gfG8o0

welcome to Friday it's the weekend close
and tow that old fellow you said you
were proud of me it's the weekend
anyways yeah yeah no losin it no I know
that I told you guys that I wasn't going
to probably vlog today which so this
last couple days have been kind of on a
down-low
reason being is because one I'm getting
over having a kidney infection in a
bladder infection good times you know
lovey love it just love it so I am
getting over all of that so I kind of
just took it easy just because I really
kind of wanted my body just to heal
quickly I don't got time to be sick
I really don't so it was time for Amy to
just chill it chill it skillet like I
tell my kids s Rochelle like if I'm like
oh my gosh like if she's crying crying
crying and I'll say oh my gosh she'll go
no I don't want to chill it skillet I'm
like well then stop um anyways so I've
just taken like the last couple of days
down the kids have been home with me
which has been nice Ollie has picked up
on business so much which good um you
know owning your own business sometimes
you have those dry days where is just
like okay we haven't got no calls no
sells no this no that you know but we're
picking up on season you know there's
seasons with every business and I think
tax time comes as a very busy time for
especially like sells because people are
getting money so they can make purchases
excuse my child out there she is with
her dad
um so it's you know of course business
has picked up which has been very very
nice for multiple multiple reasons one
I'm gonna say because he's been he's
been getting up and leaving at like 7:00
in the morning and that is allowing me
and he like last night he didn't even
come home until 9:20 was about 9:20 so
it's allowing me to and and I'm I'm
actually not okay so today is actually
Saturday but I'm making the vlog for
yesterday does that make sense so I'm
actually I'm gonna post this today
though so I know that's kind of all kind
of interesting and confusing but it is
in my mind I'm still on Friday because I
did not log yesterday but I'm vlogging
for you now for yesterday but anyways so
he didn't come home until like 9:20 but
the the thing that I'm really enjoying
about this whole change of dynamic of
scheduling is that it is allowing me to
make a schedule for me and the kids
and so now I'm getting into this you
know routine we get up in the morning
you know I go through the house I clean
it you know I changed the kids I get
them dressed for the day I do what I
need to do I do my email checks my
messaging checks the best I can and you
know I check in with you guys and it's
just been really really nice and it's
pushing me to not only get into another
type of a good routine but it's also
pushing me to have to do these things on
my own and not rely on my husband
whatsoever which is very nice and so
it's been a different type of change but
with that the weather has been really
nasty and so
we have stayed home and that's been
really nice the kids have been playing
and I've been able to catch up on some
work that's needed to get caught up on
I've got multiple orders coming in for
pink fairy March March merch and if I
can speak plus I have multiple orders
coming in for my own business I've got
another youtuber life by Jen that I'm
gonna be launching her stuff this
weekend so there's so many exciting
things happening it's keeping me very
busy but I have to stay on a schedule
because if not I'm gonna find myself
falling falling somewhere sure and it's
gonna end up crumbling at my feet
so yesterday I did not vlog because I
did I had multiple orders I have one
order that is like it needs to get done
now because it's an order of six baby
onesies which I'll show you guys when I
get them done I'm pressing today's so
they'll be done today so I might be able
to show you guys actually tonight um but
I have an order of six onesies for a
brand new little girl little baby girl
she's not born yet but I guess mama went
to the doctor's yesterday and she's at
three centimeters and she is at 32 weeks
gestation so she's really afraid that
she's gonna come early so she was like
stressing out so she emailed me
yesterday was like can I get those a
little bit sooner I'm like I'm on it I
am on a girl don't worry I will have
them out to you by Monday so I've got
that order I'm you know was trying to
bust out and get done and um and so yeah
it was just it was a very productive
very busy day yesterday so I just you
know I I didn't focus on filming too
much I filmed a little bit of the kids
which I'll put in here they are loving
their blocks let me tell you they have
been playing with those things Omar even
woke up this morning 7:30 this morning
Poland has box of blocks out and dumped
him all over and was already playing
with them my kids are block kids like
they love them so that was nice
you guys know just a little bit and so
anyways I I just focused yesterday on
schedules changing things around getting
things to work for us a little bit
better and you know just working
ourselves into a new routine and I
really needed yesterday to just really
focus um so there wasn't one minute that
went by though that I wasn't thinking
about you guys and I it's so important
to me I know that I said that I wasn't
sure if I was gonna get a vlog out or
not but to me it's so important to get
one out every single day even if I'm
gonna go on a live it doesn't matter
it's still that connection that I make
with you guys every single day and so
although I didn't vlog yesterday I woke
up this morning and I told all is like I
have to get something out because I need
to connect with my friends you know and
that's what I look at you guys is just
an amazing set of friends that I've
created um I first and foremost want to
say again because my channel is just
beaming with numbers new numbers I just
want to say welcome to all of my new
subscribers I am trying to get back to
every one of your guys's messages and
welcome you guys individually because I
think that's very important on my behalf
to show how grateful I am that you guys
are here so I just wanted to say thank
you so much for taking the time to check
my channel out our channel as a family
out and subscribing to us and all the
support you guys are showing and
constantly encouraging me to continue to
press on and press forward and you know
continue to stand firm with my channel
because this is what I want to do I love
my channel I love you guys this has just
been like the best thing that I could
ever imagine doing I am so so blessed
that I made this decision to do this and
it wasn't by my choice my husband's the
one that encouraged it and I just kept
putting it off and putting it off
putting off and finally I was just like
you know maybe I'll pick up the camera
and just see you know I don't I really
don't know and you know the the first
couple of days it was just getting used
to you know remembering oh gosh I got a
you know I got a I got a record I got it
because you're not used to just
recording randomly you know and I'm
still getting used to the whole when I
go into a store and I want a vlog if I'm
gonna you know worry about somebody
staring at me or thinking I'm crazy
because I'm talking into my phone I've
had those stares don't worry but now I'm
to the point where it's like stare um so
yeah uh so anyway so welcome and welcome
welcome welcome to my channel oh gee
thanks for telling the world okay are
you gonna go to the restroom okay come
on don't bump the don't bump this down
come here okay
lift it up careful yeah put your hands
up alright okay go to the restroom shut
the door we she is 100% potty-trained
but she wears nightgowns she loves her
nightgowns and but when she goes potty
she makes us take it off so it doesn't
fall into a toilet like the back of it
because she she hasn't figured out how
to like hike it up um but anyway he's I
just yeah I wanted to definitely throw a
big thank you and welcome to each and
every one of you guys I don't get to see
everybody's names that pop in that our
new subscribers sometimes they show
sometimes they don't so I don't get to
officially say thank you to each and
every one of you individually as I wish
I could but I want to make sure that I
think everybody no matter if your name's
show or not I see my numbers going up so
I know that I
got great subscribers joining um what
else don't forget tonight I am going
live now I don't know for sure okay
I'm not for sure if here come on yeah
okay come on yeah okay well let me let
me finish doing what I'm doing okay and
then we'll talk your arm no over here
okay okay as soon as I'm done then I
will have them do that okay shut the
door Maya can you put it on cars please
she's almost three almost three nature
yeah anyways um don't forget tonight I
am going live it will be at 5 p.m.
Pacific Standard Time my time so if
you're Eastern Time
I believe that is three hours ahead of
me um you might want to google but I'm
pretty sure you think it's three-hit
hours ahead of me if you're across the
country sorry loves you're really gonna
have to google that one because I really
don't know um but anyways I will be
going live so I'm really excited get
your guys those questions up and out
kids um make sure you guys have your
questions ready and I'm gonna be doing a
giveaway let's see what else for the
ones that one your oh my gosh now she
made me lose track of thought the ones
that one year guys's giveaways the last
two months I forgot who they were and I
cannot find it in my emails I have
looked and looked and looked you guys I
cannot find it could you shoot me an
email and say hey I was one of the
winners I believe one was Elizabeth I
know one was Cruz and there was one
other one I can
not remember if you guys can please give
me your guys's name so I can get your
guys's gifts out to you I'd really
appreciate it
um and then I have my giveaway tonight
hmm what else I'm gonna do the dinner
thing but I think what I'm gonna do is I
think I want to try and do what recipes
have been given to me rather than
picking out because I really I mean
almost all of them sound like something
I would definitely want to try so what
I'm gonna do is go down my list of all
the things that were given to me idea
wise and then I'm just gonna write them
all down if I don't understand a certain
thing I will try and like message you
somehow to get like a little bit more
detail of like how to do it but I think
that's what I'm gonna do instead of
drawing numbers are Mills because I
really they all look really good in
their majority of them are fairly most
healthy so I don't see why not to try
them so I'm gonna do that so I won't be
drawing a mill because I think I'm just
gonna be trying to make all of them
especially with all these hours picking
up I'm definitely gonna be doing a lot
more than cooking so that will be
exciting because I'll be able to show
you guys a little bit more of me
prepping dinner and things like that so
that would be fun
um what else I think I'm gonna go
through and read a couple of messages
now I just want to make this very clear
cuz I did have a comment made a few
weeks ago what what special words need
to be set in a comment in order to have
it read out loud that's not how I do it
you guys I just randomly pick messages I
don't I don't even proofread them before
because if you guys notice there's been
a couple times where I've had a troll
that made a comment and I'm just like
okay I'm gonna answer this right where
it's at you know because that's what I
pulled up so just know that there I'm
not just reading specific ones I'm not
picking only certain people I just pick
a message I read it and then I answer it
so don't ever feel like your message
isn't important because every message
obviously means the world to me but
sometimes I just like to
few out to read out loud and answer you
know like verbally as well as I still go
in and type an answer as well or you
know response I guess I should say not
answer um but don't ever feel like your
message is less of because I didn't read
it out loud because I you know that's
not that's not how I work I promise you
that is not how I am
I love everybody's messages and I
respond to as many if not all of them
and I try and do it at a fairly timely
manner just the last couple of days like
I was explaining my my schedule has been
just a little bit different because
we're readjusting to a new reality of
our routine changing and sometimes you
know changing a routine can be a little
bit difficult especially when you've got
you know children that get in a routine
and their routine is kind of thrown off
a little bit it can kind of readjust
everything so and I have one child that
routine is very important and if he
doesn't have that routine or there's a
like a rock thrown in that routine it
can throw off his whole schedule and
that's kind of where I'm at right now
with him because he's just not he's not
being able to like get this routine down
so it's taking me a little bit longer to
work with him and you know I even wrote
like a schedule and things like that so
he can visually see the routine because
I'm trying to work with it
as much as possible so anyways I'm gonna
read a few little messages and I will
answer them so this is on the what we
got mail video from Tony arose the
biggest smile came across my face when
Maya said thank you the babies are so
adorable
I love it even Ali's expression was
adorable
you are cherished by many and deserve
those gifts by the way you are going to
love the defuser my husband was
congested about two weeks ago and I
plugged a diffuser up next his side of
the bed I added the breath
right-eo of breath easy breathe easy
sorry and it
helped him so much I found that one at
Walmart in the pharmacy section to the
ladies who gifted you those gifts were
perfect very thoughtful of you thank you
so much Tanya and you know I appreciate
so much that you know you just you know
that you're helping me to realize that
it is okay to accept gifts that it's not
me being needy or me trying to be greedy
or anything like that because that's how
I feel sometimes I guess because I'm not
very good at accepting things I like to
give not accept and so when somebody
gives I sometimes feel like oh no are
they gonna think that I'm being greedy
is you know are they thinking I'm gonna
you know that I'm expecting it because
that's just not it
like I've said multiple multiple
multiple times I didn't even know what a
wish list was on Amazon I didn't know
how to work it I didn't know how to look
people up I didn't know how to do any I
didn't even know what existed until I
was asked about it and then that's when
I was told about it um so I appreciate
you clarifying that response to me
because um it's hard sometimes to accept
that but yes the gifts that were given
to me
we're so amazing in fact I yesterday had
my diffuser on all day long I put what
was it rosemary and lavender
I put rosemary and lavender in together
and oh my gosh oh it smell so good and
it just I don't know I don't know why
but something about a diffuser in fact I
have a sensi warmer and I used to burn
cincy all the time but for some reason
the past couple of months every time I
would burn my my little cubes of wax I
would get a massive headache and I even
cut him up in half so now when I was
pregnant with Omar I could not have him
on at all and then when I was pregnant
with esfera I was totally cool with it
it didn't bother me at all but then now
all of a sudden
come back to where if I even I could cut
it and I still just get this massive
headache but when I use a diffuser nope
it doesn't bother me whatsoever so it's
really weird why you know what the
differences are but yeah so the diffuser
has just been amazing the blocks the
kids have been playing with those blocks
since the night that they got them and
look what's sitting right next to me
my planner yes because aretha you uh
yeah made my day because honestly this
thing is just like yeah I love it this
thing sets with me everywhere
like literally I have I have my day
planner and I have my clipboard because
those are my two things that I do with
my business all the time is taking notes
and taking messages and taking orders
and you know there's so much to it so
yes I absolutely loved my gifts they
were amazing and my family could not be
more grateful they all were so excited
and they were just shocked that we got
stuff because again we're not we're not
used to that so yeah thank you okay I
don't know how to say this one but I'm
gonna kind of try it I'm probably gonna
butcher it I'm sorry but I love it um JD
Powers easy 22 your laughter is
infectious and after my poopy day I
needed to smile so thank you and your
adorable husband for being here god
bless oh thank you so much um I
appreciate it and you know I get told
that all the time oh my gosh your
laughter I just I find myself laughing
out loud because I'm laughing at your
laugh and it's so funny and it's cute
and it's you know and it's so funny
because when I was younger I always was
told that I laugh like a hyena
like literally oh my gosh you sound like
a hi you know when you laugh I'm just
like okay I didn't even know what a
hyena was I had to go and Google it for
a while because I was just like I don't
even know what that is
um but
yes it's laughter is the best medicine
you know and I how many days where I'm
not laughing
there's no laughs and in this out but
for the most part you know you have to
live life as light as you can and find
the humor and the joy in as much as you
can because that's just how you make
life be and so for me yeah I love to
laugh the best that I can and you know
my my hubby he's uh he's something else
he's if I'm not the one laughing he's
the one laughing and if we're both
laughing together we're laughing at each
other so I guess it's one way or the
other but yeah okay next one geom it on
the what we got mill video so much
dysfunction and need for attention hmm I
don't know what that comment suppose be
say I told you guys I don't breathe
freedom um so much dysfunction and need
for attention not exactly sure what
that's supposed to entitle so I really
don't know how to answer that because I
mean if you're saying that we're
dysfunctional yeah we are we're human
we're a family every family I think has
their moments of dysfunction I don't
think there's any one family that's
perfect I think that you know because we
do not put on a show we don't pretend to
be somebody that we're not that there
are days that my family looks
dysfunctional and that's okay
I'm totally accepting of that and the
need for attention I'm not exactly sure
again where that comes from if you're
replying to our family because we need
attention absolutely not we don't need
attention but you know if that's how it
comes off I'm sorry if that's how you
portray it but definitely we don't need
attention we love that we do get
attention from the great support people
that we have in our lives through my
youtube channel
and my different businesses that you
know me and my husband run and things
like that
but I'm not quite sure how I'm supposed
to answer that message so I did the best
I could
ah okay candy Morgan oh my god your
son's hair is a girl's dream the body
and color and loose curls and that was
on the what we got Mel video yes yes
first and foremost I get a lot of poop
poop flap from people about me allowing
my three-year-old almost four-year-old
to have long hair but since he has been
born well I recently just cut it
actually so but when he was little Ollie
had taken him with his mom I didn't go
because I was pregnant with Ezra
or no Ezra was already born sorry Ezra
was already born and so I stayed home
with her and they took him to the barber
and had his hair cut well when they
flipped him around and he's seen himself
in the mirror he screamed bloody murder
because he was so scared that he got his
hair cut so all he was like oh my gosh
Amy I don't think that he can handle
that so any time he would see scissors
he would full lip because he thought he
was gonna get his hair cut so recently
we just cut his hair actually because it
was just getting so long and stringy and
like when I give him his showers and
stuff that get just so knotted and so I
cut it but I sadly cut it I think a
little bit too short because now I can't
really put it up in his man bun like he
likes it so it's like enough half-up
half-down thing and all he can't stand
that he can't stand that I am just like
I'm sorry I cut it too short so yes and
honestly I will say that he has and I'll
try and see if I can insert a picture of
my father my my dad insert a picture of
my dad
I think Omar looks identical to him with
his hair and all
so I'll insert a picture I'm gonna have
to find one but I will insert one you
guys can see it
um and to go with candy Morgan's comment
she wrote a little bit more it says
lovely video ding you get involved
deeply when working on vinyl your
channel should be x-rated with nasty
panties without you know I'm joking
right since you monetization you're not
disappointing yes you guys I will like I
said I will do anything you guys want on
anything
I don't mind some things I mean I'll be
able to show on my camera but um there's
nothing too much for me I'm an adult I'm
a mom I'm a wife I'm everything so if
you guys have orders that you want to
put through and you're just embarrassed
to ask you know don't be embarrassed
with me because I do it all and I
promise I won't show it all on video and
I won't say boop Inez they are okay last
one this is just gonna be for the the
last message because I'll end up
starting to close here so I am hoping I
am reading this correctly okay Bailey
car and it's the video obese and
pregnant this has me crying so much I am
an overweight gal as well I will be
turning 30 very soon and I am so anxious
to really start getting pregnant I want
to be a mom more than anything listening
to your story has calmed some of my
anxieties and fears of becoming pregnant
I too carry most of my weight in my
stomach area and have that fear of them
not being able to get a good sonogram I
am sorry that you had doctors that were
so judgmental with you getting pregnant
I think my number one fear of my entire
pregnancy process is being able to find
a doctor that will accept me for how I
am during my pregnancy I just want to
thank you from the bottom of my heart
for sharing the story with us there are
so many of us bigger ladies out there
who have these fears and are scared to
talk about them or are afraid to say
something of fear of being judged or
mistreated anywho thank you again for
making this video and being so open and
honest Bailey first and foremost I want
to say
my heart goes out to you I know exactly
the feeling that you're feeling had I
gone with what my first the first
doctors told me about going and getting
weight-loss surgery and all of that I
don't know if I ever would have
proceeded to get pregnant because I
think that I would have just shy down
and allowed what they chose to say to me
to be the the final answer and I'm so
glad that I knew differently and I knew
my body better than a doctor knows my
body I know my body better than anybody
knows my body I know what I can handle
and nobody else does and that's the same
with you and one thing that I will say
is don't ever go into getting pregnant
with fear anything and everything is
possible when you get pregnant there's
the possibility of having a miscarriage
but just because you're big doesn't mean
that it's because of your weight that
caused that miscarriage multiple things
can underlining problems can be the
reason that you have a miscarriage but
90% of the reason would not be because
of your weight it would be because of
something to do with the baby itself or
like in my case I fell and my you know
my sac got a hole in it and you know
that's what caused my loss
so just because you're big doesn't mean
that you're not any more special or not
not special that you cannot get pregnant
but always go into a pregnancy knowing
that there's something that could happen
not meaning it would happen but every
pregnancy is a miracle and so if you
were to get pregnant and something
and don't take it as your fault if you
got pregnant and you know he you
automatically if you're on a certain
weight usually they put you as high-risk
anyways because you are bigger so when
they put you as high-risk don't take
that as a fence it could be that you're
at high risk because you know they have
to use different type of machines with
you
sonograms will be different because like
with me anyways when they did my stress
test you know they had to use different
types of well they used the same straps
but they had to adjust them differently
when they did the sonograms they were
vaginal up until they could finally get
him on or and her on the sonogram with
the handheld but as long as it was under
my belly and the baby was further down
inside my pelvic area I did vaginal
ultrasounds and you know getting
diabetes while being pregnant
gestational diabetes that like I've said
before that could be a 90-pound person
that gets gestational diabetes while
pregnant
it could be a 900-pound woman that is
pregnant with gestational diabetes just
because you're big does not mean you're
gonna have gestational diabetes
I had my gestational diabetes with my
son I didn't have it with my daughter I
didn't get preeclampsia with my son but
I got preeclampsia with my daughter so
every single pregnancy is always always
different so don't ever listen and hear
people's negative stories and fear
stories and horror stories of their
pregnancies because just because
somebody had a bad pregnancy experience
doesn't mean just because you're big
you're gonna have one too
pregnancy is a beautiful thing but it
can also be a very scary time for any
woman any woman of any size any color
any shape any form pregnancy is just a
very scary thing for all women I think
we all go into it with different
mindsets especially if you've had
different experiences in the past with
pregnancies or your family experiences
certain things
so just always remember that you know
that pregnancies are all different not
there is not one pregnancy that is the
same and just because somebody had a bad
pregnancy experience doesn't mean you
will just because somebody had a
beautiful pregnancy experience and
nothing happened means that you will so
there's that and I wish you the best
luck and I'm here for you if you ever
need to talk I know that I got a message
from you and I'm so sorry I couldn't
message you back as much as I wanted to
I was trying to put my little girl down
and she was being just so cranky
yesterday that I was just like but
definitely message me anytime hon if
there's anything I can do to help you in
the process of the steps that I took to
start my body and preparing my body to
start trying I would definitely be there
to help you in every step that I can and
the suggestions that I can give you the
things to look up the tools to use
anything and everything that I could do
to help anybody start a family would be
the number one thing that I would love
to help with because I know that at
times I felt very alone in this journey
of wanting to start a family because
everybody looked at me like you don't
need to be getting pregnant right now
you need to be working on your weight
you do not need to have a baby right now
you are not healthy
that was always everybody's you know
response to me so I finally said if you
all and I'm gonna do the research myself
and I will figure this out myself and I
did and out of it I got two beautiful
babies so anyways um well I think you
guys I am going to close and here um but
don't forget I will be alive tonight I
will be on you guys can ask me questions
um I am an open book there's nothing
that you know you guys can't ask that I
would not be open to you know have you
guys ask me um let's see
trying to think I think that's it so I
will be doing the giveaway tonight at
the end of the live so that just so FYI
I will draw a name at the end of the
life you see you guys have up until 5
o'clock my time to get your guys's names
in for the drawing even if you guys put
your names in previously for a draw for
this draw could you guys read put your
names back in and the reason I'm seeing
is because when my whole phone did
that's crap and it blew out and died out
and whatever else it did to me I lost a
lot of stuff and I'm afraid that I might
have lost some of your guys's names I
have some of them written down but if
you guys could just go ahead and give me
back your names again that way I can
make sure I have everybody written down
anybody and everybody is welcome to to
do the draw again for the ones that have
won the drawing that I have not gotten
your guys's gifts out to you could you
guys please email me your name just so
I'm pretty sure I know who you guys are
but if you guys can just go ahead and
shoot me an email
and so other than that I'm gonna close
right here so that I can finish my tea
and go take my shower and get ready for
my day and get some of my messages back
to you guys cuz I have not done that yet
and get this video up for you guys so
anyways I will check in with you guys
tonight at 5 o'clock can't wait to see
you guys until then have a wonderful
Saturday bye bye
